The Fall After The Night by Hannah

The Fall After The Night

by Hannah

Nothing Gold Can Stay

By Robert Frost

Nature's first green is gold,

Her hardest hue to hold.

Her early leaf's a flower;

But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.

So Eden sank to grief,

So dawn goes down to day.

Nothing gold can stay.

After that night at the hotel Hannah was devastated.  She had planned that night for weeks she did not get to do any of the things she had planned.  It was as if Sam showed up just to be an ass and fuck her then dump her.

October came and went and Hannah’s mojo was gone just gone.  She was losing herself and she knew it.  Spending her time not being horny for a change at first was nice, she was accomplishing a lot of task because she was not distracted with getting laid for a change.

November comes and she starts to worry.  She does not like the idea that Sam has so much control over her.  He is after all just a man so why is she letting him affect her mood.  Her normally happy go lucky carefree self.  Where the fuck did she go?  Hannah has no idea.  Is she like a leaf in that Robert Frost poem?  Is her golden happy go lucky attitude gone forever?

December comes about and Hannah’s mojo returns, it is sketchy at first.  One day horny one day not, one day horny, two days not for a couple of weeks but she knows the fog is lifting.  She has seen Sam a handful of times and it is always the same conversation.

“Why are you doing this?” Hannah will ask.

“I don’t know.  When I figure it out I will let you know,” Sam will state.

Once Hannah’s mojo returned she would say “I can’t believe you won’t give me any.” 

Sam would state “I am getting the short end of this deal.”

That would only confuse Hannah.  How can a man state he wants to be with you, same man knows he can be with you but then choose not to be with you?  Hannah decides Sam is too fucked up for words and decides alright girl it is time to pull yourself up by your boot straps and carry on!.

It is January and February is coming soon it will be the anniversary of the first time they had sex.  Time to do some soul searching!  Hannah needs to really get her head straight and move on it has been four months since that night in the hotel.  Hannah needs to move past it and move on and most of all just be her happy self!

She thinks about the first night they were together sexually.  It lasted like five minutes and was not all that to say the least.  Hannah almost did not go back for seconds but Malinda convinced her to give him another chance stating first times are awkward.  It had been so long since Hannah had been with anyone new so she agreed.

Thinking back Hannah remembered him acting like he was worried she was falling in love with his ass.  Malinda and Hannah would laugh for hours over this ego of his.  Then Sam started saying things like “I’ve dreamed of a women like you my whole life” or “I’ve wished for you” and Hannah’s favorite “If I can’t have what I want I don’t want anything at all and the only thing I want is my Cherokee woman”.

Sam made time for Hannah everyday talking on the phone and texting her.  He had become her best friend.  She wanted to try everything with him.  Before him she was a prude and kind of uptight about sex.  Missionary and doggie style was it and blow jobs were issued in orders “you warn me because if you come in my mouth I will never suck this again” so the few she had given blow jobs to adhered to her rule.

Hannah wanted to try everything with Sam.  Looking back she has no idea why or what it was about Sam that instantly had her attention he just had it.  Hannah was used to getting her way and he was not giving her what she wanted anymore and it was making her crazy.  He went from being Sam her Sexy Agreeable Man to being Sam her Stupid Ass Man! 

Hannah had thought she was just in love with the sex and that in time she could fall for him as well.  Then the sex was gone and she tried like hell to get him back when her mojo returned but to no avail.  Then she told him to take his friendship and shove it square up his ass till he fucking choked to death on it.  The next day she felt like shit like her heart had been ripped out and stomped all over and like she was just being a mean bitch because he had broke her heart.

Hannah apologized for that outburst but in reality she had to face the facts somewhere along the line she had fallen in love with him not just the sex.  The reality of that fact shook her to her very core at her age she did not believe in love anymore it was for suckers and tree huggers.  Hannah thinks of the poem again and can’t help but say a little prayer of “this too shall pass”. 

Sam’s birthday arrives in February and there is a small party for him.  Hannah decides okay she is strong enough to attend.  She can be around him and not cry, and not beg for sex it is over.

At the party Hannah is having fun cutting up and laughing with everyone.  Just to be a smart ass she gives Sam a bottle of Two Finger Tequila” for his birthday.  One reason is she had told him that song “You and Tequila” reminded her of him and second reason he never could get two of his massive fingers in her. 

All the sudden everyone disappears almost like it is planned for them to be alone.  Once alone Hannah says “I have one more present for you”

“Oh yeah,” said Sam.

“Yep I have decided you can date whomever you want you do not have to worry about it upsetting me to hear about it or anything,” Hannah states.

“I am glad to hear it,” Sam says quietly, “I do not have anyone in mind though nobody catches my eye but you, you’re the only person that catches my eye.”

“Asshole” Hannah states “ASSHOLE then why are you doing this to me!”

“I am not doing this to you I am cheating myself!” Sam states.

“Then why are you cheating the both of us?” Hannah asks pleadingly “You want what you can have but you're saying no and I just don’t get it?”

“I don’t either when I do you will be the first to know,” he says laughing.

“I have tried everything I know, I’ve begged, threatened, hell I even tried to tempt you with hair laser removal treatments that is when I knew it was over,” Hannah blurts out.

“How is that?” Sam questions.

“Come on you don’t even care to know how much hair is left if any which showed me you have no interest in me what so ever,” Hannah states.

“I have wondered,” Sam states honestly.

“I even tried to make you jealous by bringing John around and that didn’t work!” Hannah is just exasperated at this point.  She just doesn’t want to want him anymore.

“How do you know it didn’t work?” Sam asks

“Well you didn’t come running back now did ya?’ Hannah states then continues “You know how I feel about John.  He is my friend and thanks to him I kept my numbers low.  John knows all about you he knows I will not get involved with him till I am over you.  He is dying to take your place.  I just don’t get it probably never will.  To be honest I am tired of it and I need to move on.  Anyways I have said what I wanted which is date who you want. I got to go Happy Birthday.”   With this Hannah gets up to leave.  Sam stands up to so she turns to hug Sam bye and wraps her arms up around his neck. 

“You look really good tonight by the way,” He states noticing her skinny jeans and GA Bulldog t-shirt that is strained and stretched against her chest.

“Thank you,” says Hannah still huddled up against him as he slides his hands under her shirt.  “I don’t want to let go.”

She leans back and he kisses her his hands still rubbing up and down her back inching there way to the front.  “I think I am going to have to bite you,” Hannah states laughing and standing on her tip toes and nibbles his ear.

“Wonder if your car is warm?” Sam asks not wanting the ragging his roommates would give him over screwing Hannah.

“Yes” Hannah mumbles as his hands finally reaches and cups over her breasts.  Sam touching her after all this time just melts her instantly.  They make a run for the car and get in the back.

“Okay but you don’t get any for three months,” Sam states.

“I’ll worry about that tomorrow,” Hannah says laughing.

“or maybe next week who knows with my ass!” Sam says laughing.

Hannah is straddling him and he is kissing her.  Really kissing her not his grandma dorky kisses but his passionate I want you kisses that really make her crazy.  He reaches back and unhooks her bra and reaches around and is fondling her tits.

Hannah is grabbing for his belt.  She eases off to one side and he is easing his pants down.  She reaches out and wraps her hand around his hard dick.  She had almost forgotten how wonderfully thick it is. 

His hand is going down her pants and purple g-string panties as he is sucking her left nipple.  The moment his finger grazes across her clit she remembers how very good Sam is with those hands.  He wastes no time bringing her to a fevered pitch. 

Sliding his finger in and out of her and rubbing her clit all while kissing her.  Hannah is in heaven she never wants this to end.  This was the Sam she knew and loved, a tender, passionate and sexy as hell man.

“You keep doing that and I will not need this,” Hannah states while stroking his cock.

“You keep doing that and I won’t either,” Sam says while moving on top of her “but then neither one of us would get to enjoy this.”

Hannah keeps her hand wrapped around his shaft not wanting a repeat of the first time where he rammed it in and split her.  He either remembers or senses something because he takes his time and eases it in a little at a time. 

All Hannah can think is damn it has been five months since she has felt his wonderful dick stretching her open.  He had to feel it as well.  The sex between them was amazing to say the least.  Why would Sam cheat himself out of this everyday?  Brain damage he must be suffering from brain damage.

“Oh Jesus!” Hannah says as she starts to cum which she started when he got it about half way in.

Her hand is still grasping some of his penis she lets go and starts rubbing his beautiful full balls.  She is dripping wet now and he is sliding in and out of her all while she is rubbing his balls. A few minutes later…

“Oh Jesus!” Hannah calls out as she is coming again.  She lets go of his balls and reaches around and grabs his nice ass.  Gasping for air as every nerve in her body contracts her nipples are standing straight out.  Sam sucks one of her nipples into his mouth making her cunt twitch with delight.

“Want me to get on top?” Hannah asks

“Sure,” Sam replies while rolling over.

Hannah climbs on top of him and grasps his dick and is inserting right back where it belongs.

“Why would you not want this every day….Why??”  Hannah mumbles in disbelief that this feels anything less than amazing to him as well.

Sam says nothing but takes turns sucking her nipples till she comes again.  Then he grabs her by the hips and holds her still.

“Everything okay?” Hannah asks

“I just want to savor this,” Sam says.

“Great idea, me too,” Hannah says.

She notices her bra is getting in the way so still straddling him with his cock buried inside of her she removes her shirt and bra.  Then she reaches down and pulls his t-shirt up exposing his very sexy chest.  She leans down and licks his hard nipples and start slowly moving her hips again.

Sam takes her boobs and starts shaking them then he put his hands on top of them and starts rubbing them up and down.  He is playing with her tits like a teenage boy that has never seen a pair of them before. 

“You want back on top?” Hannah asks after a few more minutes.

“Okay,” Sam says.

Once he is back on top he grabs her hand and moves it down.  She knows what he wants and is more than happy to please him.  She reaches down and starts rubbing his balls that are dangling down.  She wishes she could take one into her mouth.  Sam is kissing her everywhere.

He is kissing her up and down her neck.  He is also taking his penis almost completely out of her.  She can feel the cool air on her wet crotch. She can feel the ridge along the head of his cock sliding in and out of her.  The sensation of him teasing her with just the head of his dick, while kissing up and down her neck is too much. 

“Oh Jesus! OH JESUS!” Hannah blurts out as she is coming again.

A moment later Sam lets out a small groan, and shudders as he fills her with his cum.  He is not moving now just lying on top of her trying to catch his breath.  She loves to feel the weight of him and is rubbing his back and his cute ass.

“You're hot!” Sam exclaims.

“I bet,” Hannah replies laughing “I came more tonight than I did in the five hours the last time we were together.”

“Really? I did not notice,” Sam says jokingly.

Sam rises up and is trying to get dressed.  Hannah puts on her bra and t-shirt.

“How on earth did this happen?” Sam asks.

“What’s up?”  Asks Hannah while she is trying to get her panties a G-string untwisted.

“My underwear is all twisted up almost in a knot!” Sam says laughing.

“You should try untwisting a G-string sometime,” Hannah states laughing too.

Sam starts teasing her about when she will get it again.  She reaches into his shirt and is rubbing his hairy chest.

“This is very nice,” she says meaning it.

Sam reaches and rubs her chest “This is nice too”.

“I am nice though and would let you play anytime you want,” Hannah giggles.

“I know,” Sam says “I always enjoy it you know that.”

Sam gives Hannah one last kiss and says “I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”

“Okay,” Hannah says.

She watches him walk into the house.  She climbs into the drivers’ seat and sits for a minute thinking.  Hannah knows he is torn, just leaving one relationship and falling into another one a year later wondering if he is wrong again or going to get hurt again.

Divorce can make you question your sanity in making decisions.  The hardest thing about a divorce is realizing that you trusted your heart with someone that did not deserve your heart and there is no one to really blame but yourself because it was after all your choice.

On the drive home Hannah is thinking that “Nothing Gold Can Stay” poem is not true because it really does stay.  The gold moments are either happening right now or just happened and are a sweet memory or coming around again.  She does not know what the future holds for her and Sam but she knows she will be okay no matter what.  Even as the dawn goes down to day she knows if she just puts one foot in front of the other dawn will come around again.

As she pulls into her drive way she thinks…. Tonight was a gold night, Hannah hopes and prays it comes around again…..soon.